fucked. Truth is I had this dream often that I wanted some guy to take me, force me to suck and fuck him. I told my girlfriend about it, she thought I was nuts, "you want some guy to rape you?" she asked. I confessed, "Yes, I guess that's what I want." "You are nuts, go to any bar there will be lots of guys that will want to fuck you, fuck them. Being raped is not what you want, you could get hurt or have something terrible happen to you," she yelled. She was right but I was tired of guys fucking me and then asking if I had enjoyed it or did they please me. I wanted to please them, let them use me for their wants and not care how I felt. Her remark about my getting